Finding myself again
falseI didn’t think a breakup would feel so confusing. My ex left me earlier this week while I was working. My brain won’t shut up, and I keep switching between being okay, crying, mad, and then okay again for like five minutes. He isn't a bad guy, which makes this harder. We just became stagnant and my too comfortable. We stayed in the same place way too long and called it a relationship?? I know my depression didn’t help either bc there were so many days I didn’t want to go out or do things and I know that put a damper on us. I’m not pretending I was perfect so like let's get that out of the way before we start pointing fingers.
My dad’s been keeping me sane. Like i expected him to trash my ex but he didn’t. He just said he knew I wasn't happy and we were just coasting and wasting time. I mean what the point is of being in a relationship if it’s not actually going anywhere and thats the question that keeps looping in my head.
Christopher and I have been talking on the phone every night and the other night he admitted something that hurt but also made sense?? We've been doing this on-and-off thing for over a year where we fight and almost break up, talk about it and get back together without ever really fixing anything. He said if he didn’t finally do something we’d probably keep doing that forever and never actually be happy. So instead of talking it out, he just… left. and what's really messing with me now is that he still wants to be friends.
Like… how do you leave someone and then still want access to them? It's like he doesnt want me, but doesn't want to lose me either nd part of me wants to keep him around because hes safe and it hurts less than cutting him off cold turkey??
But I also know no contact is probably better for me. I cant heal if I’m still checking my phone, hearing his voice, and even though he left me like that I'm still attached. I hate that leaving him feels harder than staying stuck.
My dad is trying to get me to focus on my future and finish my degree so I can get a better job and just leave this whole chapter of my life behind. I get in my head like yeah it sounds empowering and then suddenly I just want to rot in bed and miss someone who doesn’t even belong in my life anymore. I just feel sad and confused and weirdly hopeful for no reason sometimes.
Anyway. That’s where my head is at.
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