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I have lost myself and the hope to find myself again

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I am in a rut and I know the steps like drinking water, cleaning my space,gym, skincare and journaling,etc but I can't seem to find motivation to begin them. I'm in therapy and take medication but I just can't get the motivation for anything else. I usually have optimistim and drive but I've lost them. I fast all day without realizing I havent eaten,then eat random and sometimes very unhealthy meals later at night,then spend much of my time in bed.I do the bare minimum to at least try not to sink further down, but I want to progress not just survive. I know I deserve better for myself but I'm stuck. I am venting/ need advice I guess. I'm in a relationship that I'm unsure is toxic or just needs more effort to get back to healthy, I love him alot but we've been in a bad pattern lately.I feel like I base alot of my moods and happiness off of thier interactions with me because they seem like the only bit of hope and companionship I have these days,so Im not sure If they are my safe space or just a toxic bond Ive held on to because Im used to them. I have a good career but as an independent contractor, it takes lots of networking and because I've lost lots of confidence I haven't been making the strides it takes to gain traction for fear of rejection. My job also is very intense,so sometimes I dont pursue more work because I feel I can't mentally or physically handle what I know is expected of me and Id rather not be involved then do a bad job and not get hired again when I hopefully get better. And even when I get opportunities that Ive created for myself they feel like burdens instead of the joy they used to bring me. I am also on a limited budget because of work slowing down due to my not creating more opportunities for myself, so my normal joys of shopping or pampering, or even a trip are out.My room and home are messy because I just lack energy/motivation. And besides my partner I feel anxious and an impending sense of doom when I think about connecting with friends. I feel so lonely all the time. I do have a great family but I yearn for outside relationships. My life just feels so empty and I know the power is within me to change it, not to settle but what do you do when you don't have the motivation/strength. I know I sound like a pathetic mess and I feel ashamed. Any tips or advice would be appreciated.

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