2. Felt true empathy and softness for myself this morning for the first time in what feels like forever!! : stressLess-life

Felt true empathy and softness for myself this morning for the first time in what feels like forever!!

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I’ve struggled for a really long time now with severe episodes of depression and the occasional hypomanic (never had full mania). After my last hypo, I crashed into one of the worst, most scary depressive episode I’ve ever experienced. The guilt, shame, embarrassment and just straight up chemical crash from the hypo mania nearly ate me alive.

The last few weeks I’ve been desperately trying to clean up the mess I’ve made of my life in the last few months and really trying to practice kindness and softness towards myself and my body. I’m trying to really focus on any areas of self care that I can bring myself to tackle day by day and I’m slowly feeling myself get back to a baseline. One things I’m still struggling with lately is eating enough through the day.

Yesterday I focused all day on taking care of myself in other aspects (did some yoga, had kombucha instead of booze, visited my family, got settled for bed at a good hour) and ended up procrastinating my dinner until 11pm. I wasn’t even that hungry but I tried to force myself to eat a late of my favourite foods. It was a small portion and I knew it was not enough food for my body to be fully fuelled up but again, I wasn’t starving and just wanted to head to bed so when I finished and felt full, I didn’t push myself at all to eat anything else. Ultimately not a huge deal right? I mean what matters is the fact that I did eat something before I went to bed, right?

Nope. I woke up at 8am STARVING. Like, stomach churning, nauseous feeling kind of hungry. It woke me from my sleep and I was too uncomfortably hungry to go back to bed. I got up, moved to the couch and thought about it for a second and out of no where, I started to cry!? I felt SO bad for myself. I felt so sad for my own body because I had starved it. I had been consciously aware of the fact that I was not getting enough calories into myself and still chose to not push myself to eat more, therefor actively making the choice to starve my body. The body that has been with me through it all. The one that’s been through so much already. So much that’s been out of my control but also so much that’s been because of me. I have spent so much time pitying myself for all the hurt I’ve gone through that’s been put on me by circumstances out of my control, yet I continue to be oblivious and ignorant to the needs I can meet on my own.

This is the first time in as long as I can remember that I’ve ever been able to truly empathize with myself and my body on a human level. I am extremely empathetic and soft to my loved ones and will immediately cry at even the thought of them being harmed and this is the first time I’ve been able to extend that love into myself. I am going to do better for myself.

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